An Ode to the father I thought wasn’t there (here).
The first time you left, I had no fear. I spent my time being unaware. Unconsciously drifting in and out, looking within, but mostly looking without. Time grew long and my knowing grew strong. My soul yearned for answers and the answers they came. Through years of denial, I swallowed the pain, waiting for the moment when I could breathe again.
Coughing and sputtering and gasping for air, my consciousness arose out of thin air. My sight grew large, and my aura grew wide, as I began to see your love streaming in through my third eye. Realizations flew in from galaxies far away, about the depth of your love that caused you to give me away. My heart expanded, I thought it’d explode, but rather it softened and stretched for miles it seems, creeping towards every soul that it seen. Touching them each, ever so softly, filling them with unwavering heart beams of pink and gold, letting them know that love always takes hold.
May all beings feel the depth of your love, there isn’t anything greater than the vastness in tears that carry our souls over the years, until alas, like the morning dew, we land softly and sweetly on the earth with you.
There was a time when I felt in despair, not knowing the reason for leaving me bare. Now gratitude resides, the soul heir. Thank you for taking me there.
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