Reclamation

Many years ago while sitting with a Shaman she told me that she saw that I was being hunted by dogs and they ripped my throat out. From time to time I recall that session with her, but recently it came full circle.

I was in a large container of over 500 women from all over the world and one woman was leading us through a process. The purpose was to return to the origin in which your voice had become suppressed.

During this process I saw myself in old world Ireland and the dogs chasing me and indeed tearing my throat out, however the next scene showed me standing in a white gown, heart open and shining, with my grandmother and my great grandmother on either side of me, but slightly behind and hundreds of other women behind them.

As I opened my mouth a sound like a siren emerged and filled the air as I turned my head from left to right and then back again as if announcing to everyone in the land that I had reclaimed my voice.

As this continued, I saw thousands of women lying asleep just beneath the surface of the earth begin to emerge and rise.

From my experience with Shamanism or any healing modality really, when you go into journey or enter into the soul retrieval process, afterward you must integrate. As I stepped onto the path to enter into the forest the next day, I felt an immense fear for about the first ten minutes, jumping at every single noise. I kept thinking that a band of coyote were going to appear and attack me. The fear eventually went away and then I recalled when I was a little girl between the ages of five and nine, the neighbor that lived behind us had whatt I remember as a very ferocious German shepherd that was tied up behind their backdoor and every time I went out to play it would viciously bark and attempt to free itself to come after me. I’ve had a fear of dogs most of my life.

As I continued down the path and was not too far from finishing my hike, I stepped onto the paved trail and low and behold a man with a German shepherd came walking towards me. The man stopped and asked his dog to sit and as I approached I just kept telling myself, be calm, smile and talk with the dog, look him in the eye and tell him how happy you are to see him too.

There is always a deeper layer. We are always being given an opportunity to alter our responses and allay our fears. When one voice is reclaimed it creates a ripple effect and thousands more will hear the call and awaken.

It is such a deep honor to be doing this work and sharing these experiences as an ancient story teller and wisdom keeper. I continue to be deeply humbled and continuously reminded to be the medicine, receive the medicine, and share the medicine.

May we all reclaim our voices and be heard.

Aho.